falling to pieces...

a few weeks ago he told me that i should move on.... and that he wasnt the right guy for me... and i did.... i got a boyfriend... but all i thought about is when he saw me holding hands with my ex- and how his facail expression killed me inside... i thought at that moment that he cared about me... but truthfully he thought i was just trying to make him jealous and found it funny... but here is the back ground of this "friendship..."
for a month we hung out... talking about dating and how much fun we had around each other... he made nervous to the point that i couldnt even act myself and i know that was a turn off and so he never wantedto ask me out... but in that month when he cuddled with me and kissed me... i felt wanted, he knew just what to do to make me smile... we played basketball, went to wal*mart, rented movies, went bowling, but i was never the one he really wanted he was always talking about how he has been hurt and is afraid of being hurt again... and truth be told... he hurt me... he caused he to doubt my personality and self-confience but yet he still brought a smile to my face....even on prom... instead of going partying he came over to my best friends house with her boyfriend and brought they brought us flowers... at that moment i felt so amazing... he is truly one of the most amazing and funny guys... and eventhough i'll most likely nevertalk to him again... he did impact me... and i'll always remeber the weird moments and the complete ones!!