learning to fall...

aparently i have some problem... because every time i realize someone likes me i freeze up... in my moms words "you just like the thrill of the chase...." but if thats true... it's a bad thing... i end up hurting people who "want" to be with me.... and getting hurt by those people who dont "want" me... i know i just dont want to get hurt again... but i do want to be able to act myself and have a ton of fun... i mean i have fun... but around some people i feel i act way to quiet and shy, whcih is not like me...
i feel like i've lost that fun and bubbly person and she has been replaced by i shy, scaryed girl...
i know around people i know really well i can act myself... i just get shy around new people... i need to snap out of this quick!... before i miss out on something/someone!

but anyways- i found another band i like!

Quietdrive-

"BOTHWAYS" by quietdrive
Be honest with me Did you ever think That these things that you did Would come back to haunt you And fail you again Don’t ever question My will to admit That when we’re alone It’s too hard to resist Making believe That we’re bigger than this For choosing a road That is different but similar To the same one I took before

Chorus :Why don’t we breathe Why can’t you see That things aren’t always What they appear to be And as simple as it sounds I think I’ve found The perfect way to grow old The simpleness describes The iron that is you And your rusty old life Get on with the mattress And tell-tale lies Watch everything That you touch turns to ice Following the sheep And they’re at it again Making believe That there’re free as it seems But only finding out that They’re on a sinking ship That doesn’t care How many it saves today

Chorus: Watch out now I see the light At the end of the tunnel It seems realistic That getting there will make us fine But watch out now It’s full of glass Don’t take the chance You’ll surely pass At least some day We’ll know the reason Why Chorus The perfect way The perfect way