just tell me im worth living for!

life seems to bring do many obsticles, and all i want to know is that im worth your time. you tell me i am, but yet i still have my doubts. you know my stresses and worrys, and i know you tryed to be someone better, but as time goes on it feels like you are sliping away. by that i mean that you arent trying to impress me, the magic is gone to you, and i am standing here worried to death that you might leave me behind. so just know that i am trying for you.
how does that make you feel that a lot of what i do is to impress you?.?.

truth

Love never dies a natural death. It dies because we don't know how to replenish its source. It dies of blindness and errors and betrayals. It dies of illness and wounds; it dies of weariness, of witherings, of tarnishings.

me

better much
i love art
i am growing, changing, experencing.
i love a few with all my hearts
but i love the whole world with all my mind.
experince has taught me everything.
painting helps me breath
photos take my breath away
the spill canvas brings tears to my eyes.
crying brings me to life.
baking cookies makes me think!
coloring relaxes me.
blogger is one of my sources of oxygen.
but you are my main source of survival.
the old memories of another makes my eyes water.
boys cause me pain
people bring hurt
friends

heres to you

each moment that i am around you my love grows deeper,
each breathe i breath around you increases my nerves.

i know i want to be with you for forever,
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but it scares me to think that you could find someone better.
someone that will make you more happy.
it is just when i am near you i feel more happy than i have ever been.
i love laying next to you
just don't hurt me,
dont break me
i can't deal with that pain,
im just not that stabble right now.
all i feel is endrofin filled love.
don't just be a figment of my imagination.
be real!
be there!

and know that i will always be near
whenever you need me
i'll be here