sometimes....

everyday i have new thoughts and emotions... but i think thats just apart of living...

Saturday, August 26, 2006

Chasing Cars by Snow Patrol
We'll do it all
Everything
On our own
We don't need
Anything
Or anyone
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me
and just forget the world?
I don't quite know
How to say
How I feel
Those three words
Are said too much
They're not enough
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?
Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life
Let's waste time
Chasing cars
Around our heads
I need your grace
To remind me
To find my own
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?
Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life
All that I am All that I ever was
Is here in your perfect eyes, they're all I can see
I don't know where
Confused about how as well
Just know that these things will never change for us at all
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Tuesday, August 15, 2006

falling forward, not backward.
im changing, im not going to be the person i was.
i am beautiful in Gods eyes, im not going to keep doubting myself.
i can archive whatever i want, im not a slacker.
im falling fast, so please be there to catch me...
i dont want to land backward again, just give the strenght to keep moving forward.

missing you....
i miss you everday but today is extremely bad.
i fliped through some photos and watched us on the video camerea.
and truly i want to be there with you more than you'd eve know.
i thought i was forgeting the love.
but tonight was a reminder.
i just want to be next to you...
i miss you Peru...
my heart is aching as tears stream down my face.
i just want to be there to help you find your place in life.
put you probably dont even remeber me but i remeber you and your in all my thoughts
i keep your picture next to me.
so remeber me and i will be waiting until i can return.

are you sure?

are you sure?
are you sure its ok to feel lost, it just hurts more.
are you sure its ok to want to be alone, it just causes others more pain.
are you sure that you really loved me, it just hurts knowing that they were little white lies...
little white lies
thats all they were
they couldnt hurt anyone?
they will never find out
well they will and it hurts
but there just little right?
think again there just as big as any other...

Sunday, August 13, 2006

His strength
philippians 4:13
I can do all thing through Christ which strengheneth me.

getting involved
its a great thing,
and as i go through this next year i plan to...
i plan to help out others in the community...
i plan to help change the lives of others...
i want to help
i have a passion

im sorry

Im sorry I said such evil things
everything just came out wrong,
Im sorry I wasnt there we you needed me
I just thought you didnt want me there,
Im sorry I have been such I crappy friend
I should of been there,
but there is no going back in time
so just know that Im thinking of you, praying for you, and that Im sorry
maybe one day...
maybe not
I cant see the future
so Im just going to live for the now.
I will always be there and Im sorry...
I really wish i had the courage to come and talk to you before,
I just dont want to make it any harder for you now.
I know you've cried and just know so have I.
I do miss "us,"
But it will be okay...
and maybe just maybe...
one daywe can sit and talk...
just let me know when that one day is.

Tuesday, August 08, 2006

life

Sunday, August 06, 2006

here it goes

here it goes
tomorrow is going to be the day.
the day i face you with the truth.
tomorrow is the day that will map out the rest of my life.
you and i have always been "us, we," together.
we have been through so many things together.
through thick and thin, the good and the bad.
and i thank you for your support and love.
seriously i thought we would make it together.
but now i know that if we dont split i will drown.
when we're together we do stupid things that i will always regret.
im done with the lies.
the truth has and is going to set me free

however, if i fail to share the truth i will face the wrath of the highest power, and when i share the truth i will face the breaking heart. or maybe not, maybe i just never ment that much to you. im sorry for whats about to happen, i will always be there for you if you call, i just cant be put inbetween the lies. we are family, its just i dont agree with your choices. and youre not willing to change these things. we have talk so much trash about others. but the truth we have no room to talk, im done talking. no longer am i going to feel accountable for the mistakes. i have stood